Dance of Creation
Life repeats itself mindlessly – unless you become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel. ~Osho
Being authentic means sharing; even when I feel vulnerable. I am rediscovering my authentic self, even after my bodily trauma.I am resting when I need to. especially when I feel the pull to try to just keep going.
Growing up doesn’t mean having to do it all in one day. Warrior’s can be soft spoken and somber as well as fierce. Today I choose to be soft. Tomorrow I can pick up my spear and be the fierce warrior again.
Fire has a healing quality and I bring all that no longer serves me into the fire as kindling to be cleaned and healed.
I can be intimate with a longing for nature and to be one with the universe. On it I build an alter to my reverence as a sacred space. I dance the dance of creation as Nataraja. Worlds open for me with mystical wonder. There is no age or discernment for tribal fusion.
My kindred tribe is loving and nurturing women that have experience in healing the world through their love and heartache. Their tears form oceans of light and I call them to me to heal what needs to be healed within me. Desperation. Restlessness. Fear. Doubt. Anxiety over things I cannot control. The words lull off of my tongue “What can I control?” and seek to fix what needs fixing.
As I clean out my closet and prepare to move large items into a storage unit for safe keeping during the winter months I find things that no longer serve me in there as well.
I find things that trigger memories of my ex and I become emotional, my breathing comes quick as I remember that place within me that always felt hopeless and vulnerable to being attacked by him or his words without prior warning.
Things that went wrong in my relationship with him and in my marriage to him. Outdated feelings as well. I throw these items in the “discard” box to be kindle. Some of the suitcases we carry are from our own psyche.
I believe in the power of knowing that tomorrow will be amazing. I can and will try to make it amazing.
I believe in the power of exercise and dance to raise my energy lost through both fear and doubt.
I believe that every solution to a problem can be fixed with love and compassion.
I believe in discarding feelings that no longer fit me in the same way one tosses out old clothing.
I believe in the power of being juicy and not being afraid to show my sexuality or feel/dress sexy.
I believe in the power of patience, and being still, through meditation and sitting in silence daily.
I believe in abundance and gratitude and I radiate being rich out into the universe. What I seek is always seeking me as well.
I believe in the power of tears and crying as a way of shedding my second skin like a snake moving on through life easily.
I believe in sisterly connections online through monthly gatherings and empowerment’s.
I believe in the love of twin flames. Soulmates make us discover our dirtiness and pettiness in order for us to clean what needs cleansed so that we can attract what really matters most to us. Twin flames match our deepest inner desires and understandings. They resonate with how we live.
Things that would be Hell for me according to my personality type:
1.) Freedom of speech is revoked from the constitution. Voicing your opinion in any way is now illegal.
2.) You are eternally condemned to researching an extremely vapid topic using wildly inaccurate methods, mostly involving interviewing people who have no idea what they’re talking about.
3.) You are eternally damned to working for a morally corrupt company that aims to exploit the weak and generally degrade conditions for all of society.
4.) Your loved ones are in dire need of guidance but every piece of advice you gives them inadvertently makes things worse for them.
5.) You have to listen to rude people criticizing your personal choices, your appearance and your art form all day long. Nobody cares that they’re hurting your feelings.
6.) Every minute of the rest of your life has been scheduled for you – and it’s a long series of arbitrary, solitary tasks.
7.) The Zombie apocalypse happens but you’re suddenly the world’s weakest fighter and must depend solely on your loved ones to keep you alive.
8.) An incredibly impractical person is put in charge of all of your major life decisions. You have to do whatever they say and are powerless to argue or reason with them.
9.) Someone you love is in dire need of practical help and you can’t give it to them. Worse yet, they think you’re refusing to help them out of pettiness and they’re mad at you.
10.) Your deepest thoughts and feelings are exposed to a large audience and everyone thinks that you’re pathetic and unoriginal.
When your love is not just a desire for the other, when your love is not only a need, when your love is a sharing, when your love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when your love is not asking for something in return but is ready only to give – to give for the sheer joy of giving – then add meditation to it and the pure fragrance is released. That is compassion; compassion is the highest phenomenon. ~Osho
Summer is going by too fast!